Further journey into the exciting land of my ovaries

[evildiorama]

Okay, so the test results show that although my ovaries are normal-sized, they both have multiple cysts. So.....yeah.

Anyway, I'm having very mixed emotions about the whole thing. On the one hand I feel validated as I kept insisting it couldn't have all been my fault and that the weight gain didn't make sense. I realize I'm not perfect but I take better care of my body than most people I know, save for like....Thea who is a little scary. It's good to catch it now. Now they can stop me from ovulating and continuing to make more cysts.

On the other hand I'm just sulky about having it in the first place. I'm trying to reserve my sulk until we see if the glucophage will help me get back down to a normal weight. I fucking refuse to look like this. I refuse to accept putting in twice the effort with diet and exercise than everyone else and still not looking good. Hopefully, bringing my testosterone back down will help with the acne. If not, they say I can start Acutane in a few months once they get my dosages figured out.

My trainer, who is a doll, found this really great article on PCOS that just makes me feel so fucking validated. The major Symptoms include elevated testosterone (Which I have), sudden weight gain (Which I have) Weight gain around the middle (Which I have) A disproportinate hip to waist ratio (which I definately have, I have extremely narrow hips) Cysts in the ovaries (Got em) and intense and often nearly painful cravings for carbohydrates and sugar (Which I've always had). SO, this means I'm not totally crazy in thinking something was wrong. It's not just a lack of self-control.

Basically, it means I have to start thinking like a diabetic person when I choose foods because if I don't, I can easily get Type II diabetes and heart disease, as the PCOS causes high levels of cortisol which turns into tummy fat which turns into bad heart things.

.............ovaries are stupid.

Comments

[gobsmackit.livejournal.com]

Stupid mothereffing ovaries.

[ala05.livejournal.com]

Love you. :)

[miko-nokamisama.livejournal.com]

I challenge your ovaries to MORTAL KOMBAT.

On the plus side, when we get a house, we'll both be eating stupid healthy food, so you won't feel alone. Jonny's gonna love it.

[evildiorama.livejournal.com]

.........you do realize I'm not going to be feeding your boyfriend?

[miko-nokamisama.livejournal.com]

Yes, but I will, and I will feed you too sometimes.

GAH. We will figure it all out.

[evildiorama.livejournal.com]

*peers confusedly*

okay, but.........is he going to be eating with us every night?

we probably actually do need to discuss these things.

cause........yeah.

[theotherpotter.livejournal.com]

hehe. you can run away and come poke bob if you get too much jonny time. but i guess that doesn't really solve the "wanting your own space" issue. but i'm sure bob won't mind you and me lounging about in our undies like we used to if you want. he'd probably love it. ::grin::

[miko-nokamisama.livejournal.com]

yeah, we do. It'll be alright, I'm sure. He is used to eating with me nightly, but I know that will change when we live together. Anyway, we'll just need to sit down and have a convo about expectations and what-not. Good thing none of us are worried about speaking our minds.

[theotherpotter.livejournal.com]

...dammit. i KNEW i should have paid attention to that "cooking for people with diabetes" class i started to hear about on the radio... but i changed to station bc i'm compulsive with the changing (just ask bob about my obsession that has grown with the remote). DAMMIT JIM! hrm. mayhaps they will play the info again.

::pouts bc i love cooking for you and you'll be so near and... and..::