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[evildiorama]

God, God I'm just looking forward to graduating.

I'm sitting here, drinking a very good cup of Jasmine tea, sitting in my cozy, quiet apartment, just the lamp and the Christmas lights on, and it's so nice. Because I'm abjectly ignoring the homework I could still be doing.

I just take better care of myself when I work. I come home around 5 or 6, cook a good dinner, sit down, eat it, and then do whatever I want. God that sounds heavenly.

To come home every day to a nice, clean (okay sort of clean), quiet apartment. I love living alone (with the exception of Amanda and Thea who pretty much understand what I need to retain my sanity...which is basically the illusion of living alone, but with the nice option of someone to talk to). I'm just so ready to be out of academics. It's too insular an environment. I want to take what I've learned and go actually live my life.

Bleh. I don't get people who just keep going to school. A bunch of my friends are going to law school next year.....AFTER we all get our Master's degrees. They don't really want to be lawyers, they just want to keep going to school and figure they'll make more money in whatever job. OH MY GOD. What??? I don't get that. I hate school. Hate it. I love learning, but I hate school. I hate going to class and writing papers and taking tests. I love to read and travel. Law school???? On top of Graduate school? That's like wanting to have bamboo chutes stuffed up your nails AFTER getting kicked in the nuts repeatedly.....ON PURPOSE.

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[fundamagargle.livejournal.com]

Some people prefer to put off the "real-world" through school, myself included. It can be turbulent, but if you don't work that hard and enjoy learning, it's infinitely preferable to the stagnation of having a job - getting up and doing the same thing every day at the same place. At least with school the atmosphere is dynamic.

But Law School...phegh. I'm with you there. Why anyone would want to put themselves through that soul-grinder is beyond me.

[evildiorama.livejournal.com]

See, for me it's the exact opposite.

I have no portion of my day devoted to myself. I can't read books, I can't go out, I can't just watch TV. I go to school all day and then work on school all night.

I always loved work. I liked working with people and it's not like working in a factory or something. You see different customers and situations and whatever happens it's still over at 5 and then you are free to do whatever. I would go home and read or go to yoga class or go out to dinner with my friends. That was so freeing to me. AND I made money.

verbal spewage galore

[nick-drake.livejournal.com]

i feel the same way. i have worked ten hours a day this week on academics, and i still turned in an essay that i only read three articles for and didn't answer the question, because i simply don't have the time to give to all of my work. i think that's the problem with school- you have, like, five bosses, and they all think that you should do your work for them. but it's like, do i do the work for all five of you and turn in something mediocre to all of you, or do i make a choice to work on a few things really well and then toss the rest by the wayside, which equals consistently turning in bad essays to the tutor i like the least. maybe you don't have that many classes, but i still feel as though there's this constant feeling of being "torn." i know this is how life is, but i feel as though it's exaggerated in academia.

the thing is, also, that i never stop thinking about academics, which means i sleep poorly and thus am less productive. it's like, well, shit, i *should've* done more work on that essay, maybe i should just wake up and not sleep at all. but then i'm too tired. but i've already wasted two hours in bed considering the option. academics drive me nuts. anyway, it's been a rough week academically, so i'm just like BALLS. i know i'm gonig to get a talking to by my head tutor for my poor work in this one tutorial, and that's something else to worry about, but i can't fix it. there's just too much to do, and no one really understands except the person caught in the crossfire. (plus i have twelve weeks of revision, during which time i plan to make up the work.)

so yes. your time is never your own if you are in academia.sometimes i consider taking a low paying job my first year out, because even though it'll make loan repayment difficult, i'm still just like, if it means i can come home at 5 p.m. and forget about my day, well HEY, that would AMAZING.

when i talk to people and they ask, "what do you want to do when you finish?"
i always say, "uh, i don't know... i mean..."
at which point they ask, "do you see yourself getting your DPhil?"
at which point i often scare them because out of nowhere comes this bellowing voice that practically yells "FUCK NO. NO, NO, NO." i'd give up being called dr. werner to have my evenings to myself for the rest of my life. that's why i don't understanding having kids and working. you'd never have more than fifteen minutes a day to yourself, and i think i'd pretty much go insane. i secretely think that most working mothers probably are.

that is all. i need to get ready to head into town before my shitty tutorial, but it's raining pretty hard. :(

[dillypoo.livejournal.com]

Hahahahahahahahahah!

[theotherpotter.livejournal.com]

yes. it is pretty darn nice. esp when you finally find a job that helps you work towards life goals with the added bonus of people (well, one person in my case) you truely get along with.

i can't wait until bob's new job starts and we are home in the evenings together... and, well, we're both making decent money. then it's going to start feeling like we're really grown-ups.

and then i CAN'T WAIT until you're down here and working and not in school and we can spend time together. that will really rock. bc right now my life is a little lame... but that's also accounting for the just getting to the point where i can afford to enjoy my "off" time.

yars. and i will learn to cook healthy/low-carb/low-sugar foods for you and we can run around parks with the pups for added exercise. w00t!

[nick-drake.livejournal.com]

my comment above is so scary. haha. oh dear.

in other news, the essay was fine. :)

go figure.